I have a dream.....

So l have a habit of daydreaming my way through work, so it came as no surprise that my boss caught me staring into space again. Except this time (from his usual "What is wrong with you?") he smiled and said "Yeah, we know....your gonna be a father.." and with that, he disappeared off my screen. (He uses skype to spy!) Well, l was surprised and "goshed" at the same time. Yeah, still dazed from the fact the in any time within these two approaching weeks, there's a tiny human girl coming into this world. She's going to hold my hand and call me "daddy!" and ask me to get her a pony as soon as she gets tired of piggy-back rides.
So the most awkward moment in a father's life is when his daughter realizes her fascination with boys. And the feeling that will disturb me when she invites over her new boyfriend. l guess its a feeling like "Huh...so that's why all my girlfriend's dads had that same look...". And maybe they just simply wished for you to have a girl so you can also understand why they just won't like you no matter what you do!
So for all those new baby-girl fathers, welcome to the world of parenthood. Maybe we should all get together and start a Pony farm or a Barbie factory, it will easier on our pockets. Gosh, do you know how much stuff them babies need? Alot! l mean, first there's the food, then the different types of food in different flavours and sizes. Then you have special tools to feed them the food and special clothes to prevent spilling of the food. Then you clean off the food-eating apparatus (that's the baby of course) with 2.5kg of cleaning ingredients and water. Then you change the nappy which stores the outcoming food (or whats left of it) and dispose it in a toxic-sealable containment. Sounds like a true Fatherhood training program. But the mommies are there too (they suddenly appear when u make a mistake) well, thats what l often hear.
But overall, l guess for any perfect dream, you gotta work hard. In the end, you get a real princess in your castle. As long as she messes things around and gets supervised by mommy, just like daddy, well l guess thats fine by me.

The "New Dad" Feeling

So it turns out that all those "amazing feelings" and "proud moments" that usually new fathers refer to, are indeed, not explainable...that is to me. But the cool thing is, there is a child inside my wife that, amazingly, will carry a part of me for her future to come. She would probably take up Cathy's looks (honestly, my wife is hot!) and maybe take up my bizarre hobbies, (building amazing models and sculptures only to finally destroy them and mimicking people..). Not really cool hobbies, l know but l guess my wife digs them (because she married me). So it's really weird, this stuff l think about, you know, usually about the baby, my family and the future. But you just can't describe what goes in your head, when this moment approaches. l mean, you know she's pregnant and you know it's a baby, but, when you actually see her tummy..you think "Dang! l feel l got hit in the head with this situation.." and you think "l am not prepared for this.."

It was totally natural for me to understand and agree to have a baby, because that's what you do right? You get married and you wanna have kids and start a small family. But when you reach the timeline around the final month, you start getting paranoid and happy at the same time. l once sat down on a park bench for 2 hours to calculate how much baby nappies (diapers) would cost us in an year! Weird, l know but the whole "You gonna be a father!!!" thing from everyone really jerks your productivity level.

But at the end of the day, l love it. The whole thing. l love my wife and l love my child. Even though something tells me that raising a baby is not really a "dream come true" but at least, we will do it together and have fun. Yeah, l love the feeling of being a father. l hope if you are dreaming of becoming one or already are, l guess there are no words. Just smiles all around. Well that is, till the day she grows up and learns about credit cards.....